Time to Pretend

oh hai that's me. (:



Well. Today was a good day.

Like, really wonderful, with not much bad stuff in it, apart from the usual bitchy parents and stuff.

It was my last first day of high school.



Several things made this day wonderful;;;;;

first, all of my classes are super fun and slack!! haha. (: Media production was a blast with ethan as my filming buddy and we played with a toy pony we found in the control room! lol. Then Lan was in my foods class, so I know that's just going to be delightful as well. ;D Lunch. Of course. (: And then there's photography. I shouldn't need to say more. (plus the teacher is fucking CRAZY!!!!! hahahahahaha!!!! I love her so so so so so much because she's just soooo so so silly!!!!!!) and I have a whole boat load of friends in Consumer Math and I even talked to Zoey and we're kinda friends or whatever now. :D and then I sit next to two nice girls in my graphics class, plus I'll learn how to edit all my photos in there so I'm obviously real excited. (:(:(:

also;;;;; I got to see tons of friends that I hadn't seen all summer, and I'll get to see them almost everyday now. (:(:(:(:(:

and lastly;;;; me and becca are friends again. (:

No one knows how happy this makes me.
and it was just nice because we can hold hands again and it's just good. (:

I can. I will. I am. CHANGE.

i can. i will. i am. CHANGE. from holly henry on Vimeo.

The Change project I participated in. Please just watch the video and then go to my flickr and then Holly's Flickr and the Change website to find out more about it. (: (: (:

My Flickr

Holly's Flickr

CHANGE website

Thanks. :DDD

Fuck the Scene

and shake it like some chocolate milk.

ah se7en please do me nowwwwwwwwww.




BC13 (:(:(:(:(:


;D hahahaha soooo greatt. So. Me and my best friend morgan were talking the other and you know what's really fucking stupid about all the scene kids? when they're all "oh no no I'm not scene!!!!" or the scene queens especially like one at my school who's all "fuck the scene" ahhhh. hahahahahahaha. lollolol you've worked sooo hard to get where you are, to add all the people on myspace, getting the extensions, the coon tails, all the right makeup, going to all the shows........ why deny it? it's what you fucking wanted right? then learn to take a fucking compliment and accept it!!!! oh my gawsh it's sooo fucking stupid. grrrrr. So anyways. that's really all I wanted to say I guess. lololol. getting my hair cut and bleached in just a couple weekssss. taking pictures for zack today (I got a photography job. :D) and working at the movie theater tonight (I still haven't quit! :P) mmmmmmmmmm go look at my flickrrr please.

Ah. So much has changed.


Sooooo much for the better. (:






And I want to let everyone know I'm sorry.
just for anything i've ever done to wrong you.... I'm sorry.

pls forgive me? :)



Um.

I'm done swearing.

I've had kind of a life changing experience I guess.
I dunno, I guess I just kinda forgot how great Jesus is and how much He has done for me and it took a weekend surrounded by loving, caring, crazy people who all love God to bring me back to the right path. (:(:(:


and....

haha. It's just so nice.

I've forgiven everyone that hurt me and I don't have all that stuff piled up on my shoulders now that used to make me so sad and upset all the time. I don't feel upset about any of that anymore and ah...

it's just so wonderful to be happy again. (:(:(:(:(:(:






I love you all! :DDDDD

The Wandering Things.

I need to get up real early tomorrow and it's already past one, so I'm gonna say a few things that pop into my head and then bailll.

kthanx.



First of all;;;;;

Michael Jackson just died. Oh fuck.
I'm very sorry sir, and I hope you have a wonderful afterlife.

Nexxxt;;

I've realized that I don't like most of the pictures I've been taking lately and I don't like the fact that I hardly know what I'm doing photography wise, so I'm going to be taking a break from everything else and I'll be spending a lot of time at Barnes and Nobles or something and read up on Photography books to make sure my skills can become hella dank.

mmmmmm;;;;;;

I'm sick of the way I look.
And you know what? I used to make myself vomit. Pretty much all of last year.
Nobody even knows how fucking much I hate the way I loook, but it's okay. (:
I don't do that anymore, though, btw.
I'm exercising a hella lot and not eating as much shit and I've completely stopped drinking soda and now I'm drinking a lot more water.


Another thing;;;;;;;;

I love my bro.
don't get me wrong with how much shit I talk about him all the time, and I'm always going to talk shit about him and make fun of him because he does the same to me and it doesn't even matter.

And then some;;;;;

I like to smoke.
Weed, cigarettes, they're both all right, although I'd probably choose a cigarette over weed.
I like it, though.
I'm not fucking stupid, I know how bad it is for me, but I really just don't give a fuck.

I'm probably going to start smoking more weed soon because I have a friend that grows it himself and everything and we've been hanging out more lately and yeah it's just great and stuffff.

ruffruff;;;;;;

I've been reading everyone else's blogs::::
Libby's
Rich's
Tasha's

and I don't really have anything to say regarding any of them, because I'm sick of dealing with shit like that...
I'm sorry if that sounds bitchy or cold or whatevs but at this point stupid drama over other people has simply lost my interest, and the only true love I have or will ever have is Rory.

And Love;;;;;;










I told you that I was in love with you.
And you told me that was the most beautiful thing you'd ever heard.
Fuck.
I didn't ask for this. You made this. I just can't do this anymore.
I've cried over you and I was so fucking scared because I was in love with you so much but I've been taught my whole life that it's wrong for two girls to be in love or to do some of the things we did but I was in love with you and it didn't matter and I was so scared so scared and now I'm just tired tired tired.

Just For Youuuuuu.

K, so I made a mixtape just for you guys. (:

Go get it and download it and love it!! :D



It's just a random assortment of songs from my computer. :P




http://www.mediafire.com/?sharekey=635ca76bcf17638536df4e8dca141969e04e75f6e8ebb871





Love!

The Rhythm of a Stranger's Skin

Ahahahahahaha! This is the best fucking song everrrrr. (:


It just makes me giggle.


Baby, you're just too legit. :P




Ah... So it's been quite a while since I've written on here, huh?

Ah... I just forget about everything so easily anymore.






Oh, so I went to Italy.

Please go to my flickr and look at all my photos. (:

Italy was so beautiful. all the people there were gorgeous and the sound of their voices was just nice and good. ah....

I know it's really terrible, but I didn't really miss anyone at all. Especially my family.

Speaking of family, I'm fucking done with chris.



He hates me and anymore I don't even like him. he's a dick and he's fucked up his life so much and now he wants to drag me down with him and he's so so good at manipulating everyone around him to get exactly what he wants.
I"m fucking done.


Just so long as he doesn't die, I don't care what he does anymore.



I want a fucking cigarette.

No I don't.

I just want to be with people and smoke some cigarettes and talk about life..... ah.........


Since I've gotten back from Italy everything has just blurred together and I can never become fully awake and I can never feel things like I used to....


















I've come to the realization that nothing really matters.