The Wandering Things.

I need to get up real early tomorrow and it's already past one, so I'm gonna say a few things that pop into my head and then bailll.

kthanx.



First of all;;;;;

Michael Jackson just died. Oh fuck.
I'm very sorry sir, and I hope you have a wonderful afterlife.

Nexxxt;;

I've realized that I don't like most of the pictures I've been taking lately and I don't like the fact that I hardly know what I'm doing photography wise, so I'm going to be taking a break from everything else and I'll be spending a lot of time at Barnes and Nobles or something and read up on Photography books to make sure my skills can become hella dank.

mmmmmm;;;;;;

I'm sick of the way I look.
And you know what? I used to make myself vomit. Pretty much all of last year.
Nobody even knows how fucking much I hate the way I loook, but it's okay. (:
I don't do that anymore, though, btw.
I'm exercising a hella lot and not eating as much shit and I've completely stopped drinking soda and now I'm drinking a lot more water.


Another thing;;;;;;;;

I love my bro.
don't get me wrong with how much shit I talk about him all the time, and I'm always going to talk shit about him and make fun of him because he does the same to me and it doesn't even matter.

And then some;;;;;

I like to smoke.
Weed, cigarettes, they're both all right, although I'd probably choose a cigarette over weed.
I like it, though.
I'm not fucking stupid, I know how bad it is for me, but I really just don't give a fuck.

I'm probably going to start smoking more weed soon because I have a friend that grows it himself and everything and we've been hanging out more lately and yeah it's just great and stuffff.

ruffruff;;;;;;

I've been reading everyone else's blogs::::
Libby's
Rich's
Tasha's

and I don't really have anything to say regarding any of them, because I'm sick of dealing with shit like that...
I'm sorry if that sounds bitchy or cold or whatevs but at this point stupid drama over other people has simply lost my interest, and the only true love I have or will ever have is Rory.

And Love;;;;;;










I told you that I was in love with you.
And you told me that was the most beautiful thing you'd ever heard.
Fuck.
I didn't ask for this. You made this. I just can't do this anymore.
I've cried over you and I was so fucking scared because I was in love with you so much but I've been taught my whole life that it's wrong for two girls to be in love or to do some of the things we did but I was in love with you and it didn't matter and I was so scared so scared and now I'm just tired tired tired.

Just For Youuuuuu.

K, so I made a mixtape just for you guys. (:

Go get it and download it and love it!! :D



It's just a random assortment of songs from my computer. :P




http://www.mediafire.com/?sharekey=635ca76bcf17638536df4e8dca141969e04e75f6e8ebb871





Love!

The Rhythm of a Stranger's Skin

Ahahahahahaha! This is the best fucking song everrrrr. (:


It just makes me giggle.


Baby, you're just too legit. :P




Ah... So it's been quite a while since I've written on here, huh?

Ah... I just forget about everything so easily anymore.






Oh, so I went to Italy.

Please go to my flickr and look at all my photos. (:

Italy was so beautiful. all the people there were gorgeous and the sound of their voices was just nice and good. ah....

I know it's really terrible, but I didn't really miss anyone at all. Especially my family.

Speaking of family, I'm fucking done with chris.



He hates me and anymore I don't even like him. he's a dick and he's fucked up his life so much and now he wants to drag me down with him and he's so so good at manipulating everyone around him to get exactly what he wants.
I"m fucking done.


Just so long as he doesn't die, I don't care what he does anymore.



I want a fucking cigarette.

No I don't.

I just want to be with people and smoke some cigarettes and talk about life..... ah.........


Since I've gotten back from Italy everything has just blurred together and I can never become fully awake and I can never feel things like I used to....


















I've come to the realization that nothing really matters.